Posted by: tlnemethy | November 1, 2012

Thinning The Veil

The historical significance of Halloween is famed for its outlandishness and allowing our fears to be suspended for a single night. We fear the dark and the things that go bump in the night, yet on Halloween we dress ourselves in “sexy” or “scary” outfits (although they can be interchangeable depending on who is doing the wearing). We wander the streets that normally would keep us indoors, the darkness only illuminated through a fiendishly carved pumpkin or a thin flashlight beam, and we stride purposefully into the dentist’s chair for a filling.

October is a perfectly placed month for such festivities in that the thinning of the veil between the living and the dead allows for a brief crossing, a brief switching of energies and emotions. We can take the night as one in which to celebrate our continued living or even to celebrate the expired lives of anyone we had a chance to know, we can look forward to candy in our hands or the adorable children who come to our doors. But it is the one night of the year that we set our fears aside to step out of our circled light and embrace the dark and the macabre, the grotesque and the foregone. Sure, we could be seen as mocking when we attend candlelit ghost tours of the graves of Salem witches hanged in the gallows, we could be treading on holy ground with our foolish feet, our plastic knives dripping cornstarch and food coloring where their blood stopped churning.

How did the holiday become something less of remembrance and more of selfish grubbing for candy? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not craggy and grumbling because I can no longer go door to door for candy without embarrassment. I don’t mind the holiday at all. And this year I celebrated in the style of the ancestors. As a native New Englander I grew up hearing stories of the Salem witches and their persecution, but I never delved too deeply into the roots of witchcraft until this very evening when I attended the open house for an organization known as the Temple of Witchcraft.

The temple just recently relocated to Salem, NH (Salem, MA is where the witch trials were held) and they fondly dubbed themselves “the other witches of Salem.” A small religious group, they were forthright on their connection to nature rather than the devil, which is something that many people get confused about. Now, I tend to avoid religion in general because as much as I love hearing stories (from all religions), I often find that as soon as I show any interest I get designated as “someone to save” and therefore never left alone. Although I was kind of skeeved to attend a religious open house, Halloween sounded like the best evening to jump in. We were greeted by a barefoot man who asked that we please remove our shoes, instantly throwing me into a panic because of my hatred of feet, but the tour only went uphill from there. My group seems to be the only one to attend the open house, and we stayed for two and a half hours.

I find the uproar that goes on when something controversial moves into town to be something of a failure in the development of our societal norms. Who cares if a temple of witchcraft moves into town? Don’t attend if it bothers you that much. I know the temple personally invited a bunch of people from the community when they relocated, but only my group showed up. And to top it off, I read a complaint letter circulating the neighborhood about the temple already. They haven’t even unpacked boxes and there are complaints about “what could possibly happen.” Not a single one of the concerned people showed up to actually figure out whether the temple would be problematic, or whether the people running it were crazies. I believe this lacking understanding is how the witch trials ran as long as they did in the first place.

Don’t condemn before looking into things yourself. They aren’t sacrificing neighborhood cats or virgins on the altar out back. They light candles and stand in circles, they have priests and religion, the only difference is in how they choose to connect themselves to the world. They seemed very welcoming, and not at all like some wingnuts I’ve met in my day. But hey, check them out yourself or you’ll never be satisfied that they aren’t playing with voodoo dolls and running around cursing townsfolk.

Posted by: tlnemethy | October 28, 2012

Intersections

Cover me over, bundle me up, step in front and crowd me out. The light still shines through the window shades, the curtains at half mast, but the leaves are still falling regardless of who watches the leaves fall. I’m lost on the streets, they join and they part ways, they run smooth and over divots that jostle and disturb. The  are where we belong on days like these. The streets are where the feet pound and hunt like carnivorous paws. Stop. Adjust. Pivot. Begin again. The craggy cement becomes smooth polished mill stones, or weathered timber planks and you notice, but at the same time you walk on with only a slightly adjusted pace, a mere stumble before you forget what surface you are on.

Don’t forget. Absorb as you go. This is even, this is slanted. Every hill you walk or curb you stumble on and you will adjust your path even a fraction of a degree. My angle is your angle, just as his is hers, or his is his. We walk, yet avoid each others angles because we avoid the continuity of our closeness. I see you coming from the distance, on track with me and our footfalls match to an intersection where we cross. I slow, I bob, I weave. Yet you do the same. We cross anyways. With downcast eyes and worried hands we pull a cellphone or a watch, perhaps even blow a speck of lint from our fingertips. All to avoid what cannot be avoided. I know and you know that we crossed paths. I know and you know that we both are aware of each other and we both consciously attempted to separate.

The awkward and sheepish smiles, the shrugged shoulders or wave to an invisible friend all to distract and distance, to cast our shadows in a different path although that intersection has already been planned, has already grabbed hold of two complete strangers and given them knowledge of one another, power over the meeting.

They are cobblestones and tiles, crosswalks and compacted dirt trails. We may roll or skip, hold hands or run alone, but we are always on track to meet someone on our angle, someone with labored breathing or laughter, maybe asthma or a booming guffaw. Challenge your angles. Don’t avoid them; they can’t be avoided. You just momentarily step into another path, another angle that creates conflict, though it is brief. Next time you are on the same path stand tall, pull out your earbuds and fully acknowledge your connectedness in time and space and realize every action that placed you both on that same path. Oh the chances. In those moments of meeting you are the polished penny heads-up. You are the winning scratch ticket of the cosmos.

Posted by: tlnemethy | October 22, 2012

Follow Me

Follow me into this brave world and you will find yourself limited and bordered by only yourself. These are the things that I was told. These are the things that had me scrambling to find myself in a haven of other polarities devoid of any True North. We’ve forgone the padded walls for smooth metallics and spit-shined silks, and have grown to love and cherish the corners that we once feared as too solid to bypass. Possession is smaller, but even more grave, even more finite in its obligations. Surround yourself with the soft and you too will morph inside that pod to a world befitting the before and the mundane.

Be gentle and kind in hopes that it will return to you one day, that it will savor you as you’d hoped. Be small and shadowed and it will pass over you as you’d always secretly wished, but publicly denounced. Where on that map are you? Can you pinpoint it? We may merely be an essence over a definite, at least as we are. In following me you follow a harbinger, but as I follow myself there is nothing but fluffy clouds and tangible emotions.

Up, up, up they say. Move onwards evermore. But there are limits to where our feet can carry us before we must swim or before we must plummet. There are ways. But we all need a passion to remain, even to be mercurial. Follow that passion, for it is the dimpled wall or the hollow shell that never forgoes you. We’ve been conditioned to leave ourselves behind like a puddle of spilled tears or a mismatched sock, but we are only a collaboration of those mismatches and eccentricities. Should we leave a piece behind, the map is blurred with lacking sureness. The tail will never pin to the donkey and he will wander the wood with dismay. You can change, you can improve, you can light up or crush the pack, but the tobacco will always scent your fingertips.

Embrace. The scent is uniquely you.

And I can follow the cloud embers as the gust blows me closer to pinpointing exactly where I am and where I may go. Chasing my tail will always lead me in circles, but it can never betray me by leading me astray.

 

 

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